#made it for my friends birthday so i dont have a ton of good pics

[takingontheworldtogether]

if you're a locked tomb fan and like to knit/crochet, i made a themed color work design! if you knit/crochet it with fingering weight yarn, you'll get a nice bookmark :)

you can find it on ravelry here or below the cut!

[yung-gunshot]

In questions!

thank you denna @kisamas

1. What takes up too much of your time? rn its mainly vibeo game and anime. i still play djmax respect like almost every single day plus also playing ace combat 5 & 7 and i recently finished watching ergo proxy which was pretty cool

2. What makes your day better? cooking something yummy like pasta or curry makes my day better and just generally playing games something that distracts me from my problems at the moment

3. What’s the best thing that happened to you today? i made pasta with sausage, broccoli, and spinach for dinner and it was really good 

4. What fictional place would you like to go to? hm i havent really thought about this but i think it would be cool to see the netsphere from blame! but without being involved in all the fucked up stuff i just love the architecture 

5. Are you good at giving advice? i would like to think so but none of my friends i know irl reach out to me so maybe i think not i just speak bollocks 

6. Do you have a mental illness? hm not sure, i never got officially diagnosed but im pretty sure i may have developed depression ever since i graduated hs

7. Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? i dont think i have 

8. What musician inspires you the most? not sure about musicians but deathgrips and jpegmafia have kinda inspired me at the moment just because they make whatever they want without being afraid of what people think of them

9. Have you ever fallen in love? yea its happened twice now

10. What’s your dream date? i dont really think about this just because i dont think it will ever happen but i think just hanging out and going hiking anywhere would be nice and i really enjoy checking out new places to eat in town

11. What do others notice about you? not really sure about this question tbh maybe that im really easy to get along with? and i dont like the fact that i exist outside of my own perception 

12. What’s an annoying habit you have? isolation? but also i tend to bounce my leg and play with my hair a lot

13. Do you still talk to your first love? nope 

14. How many exes do you have? 2

15. How many songs are in your playlist? im not really sure i just have 3 playlists on spotify that most songs go to depending on the mood they are pretty huge though so id say at least 100 per playlist

16. What instruments can you play? i used to be able to play the trumpet in elementary 

17. What do you have the most pictures of? i have lots of landscape pics from the places i go camping and hiking then its just anime girls memes etc

18. Where would you like to go before you die? i think it would be really nice to see japan, korea, and indonesia plus also visit every national park here in the us and some parts in mexico like cancun and puebla 

19. What’s your zodiac? aquarius 

20. Do you relate to it? sometimes but most of the time i think its stupid 

21. What is happiness to you? just living a life where i dont have to maintain a certain image of myself and free from the pressures of modern day life and capitalism 

22. Are you going through anything right now? yea i still havent registered for fall classes yet and also havent been able to find a job either and i lost my friendship with my best friend a month ago

23. What’s the worst decision you ever made? i think telling my best friend i grew feelings for them is by far the worst thing ive done to date and its just something im never going to forgive myself for

24. What’s your favorite store? winco, samber and la chiquita (local hispanic stores) and grocery outlet

25. What’s your opinion about abortion? pro

26. Do you keep a bucket list? nope

27. Do you have a favorite album? ive had a few as my all time fav like Emily’s D+Evolution , To Pimp A Butterfly and Toxicity, rn though im really enjoying Dog Whistle by Show Me the Body, Infest the Rats’ Nest by King Gizzard and the Lizard Wizard and Veteran by Jpegmafia

28. What do you want for your birthday? maybe some new cardigans and candles would be nice

29. What are people’s first impressions of you? i think people see me as a quiet and distant person because i dont talk that often when meeting new people

30. What age do you seem according to most people? my age (21) -/+ 1

31. Where do you keep your phone while you’re sleeping? i keep it on the corner of my bed next to my head

32. What word do you say the most? bollocks, bellend, fuck, worm 

33. What’s the oldest age you would date? 25

34. What’s the youngest you would date? maybe 20 but they would have to be a very specific type of person for me to consider dating them, safe bet with 21

35. What job/career do most people say would suit you? art teacher

36. What’s your favorite music genre? it used to be hip hop for a really long time but now i like rock and metal but really ill listen to anything except for country and edm. ive also just been listening to a ton of vibeo game and anime music too 

37. If you could live in any country in the world, where would it be? i honestly think if the world wasn’t dictated by money i would want to live in mexico or japan tbh i like the us but just for the nature and landscapes 

38. What is your current favorite song? Camp Orchestra by Show Me the Body

39. How long have you had this blog for? i think i started in the middle or end of 2015

40. What are you excited for? i cant really say im looking forward for anything other than death stranding coming out and the dlc for ace combat 7

41. Are you a better talker or listener? i think im a better listener than i am a talker bc when i talk i cant even understand what im saying sometimes. listening is much more important to me bc i can actually process what people are saying 

42. What was the last productive thing you did? i talked to my adviser today and made some food and took my dog out for a walk at the park

43. What do you want for Christmas? i would like more board games to play with my cousins and friends and maybe some new pants too

44. What class do you get the best grades in? i dont know about best grades but its usually my painting and drawing courses 

45. On a scale of 1-10, how are you feeling right now? 5

46. What can you see yourself doing in ten years? i honestly dont know and the only thing that comes to mind is being a teacher? i just live day to day 

47. When did you get your first heartbreak? i guess after i graduated hs we were talking before we graduated but things sorta fell apart and i realized my feelings a bit too late to change anything 

48. What age do you want to get married? not sure since i cant see myself being taken seriously enough to want to marry but i guess ill say any age before 40

49. What career did you want to have as a child? i dont quite remember but i recall wanting to do space travel so maybe an astronaut? or astronomer

50. What do you crave right now? emotional stability, some taro milk tea, and more pasta\

im gonna tag @deredere @euthymiclurker and @dementatree :)

[aharris00britney]

ASKS 06

Ummmm stuff I’ve ignored and let build up ;-; MM hairlines, a pic of me, default replacement hairs, donation stuff, using my hair conversion meshes, a male hair wip, recolor requests, and other stuff UwU

Anonymous said: face reveal?        

lmao this is from October but I never take pics of myself besides snapchat so UwU

@wildfire607​ said: I love your content for the game! I have my notifications on for you. Much love from Texas. ♥️

omggg thank you!!!! literally I don’t feel like people would have notifications on for me ;n; again, thank you so much <3

@standardheld said: Hey there! I know you don’t take requests so take it as an idea. Maybe you’ll like it. Otherwise, please don’t feel forced to do anything! So here’s the idea: I haven’t fount an adult’s version of you YeoJin hairs with big pigtails. Remember Cassandra Goth from The Sims 2? It think it would look beautiful and I know you’ve got the necessary talent. If you like the idea, please let me know :)        

Hello!!! Lmao I am kinda swamped rn to start ‘new’ things BUTBUTBUT I don’t mind if somebody uses my conversion meshes like YeoJin Hair since all it is is a conversion. So if u wanna do it or wanna ask some other people, feel free!! <3   

@pxelsquid​ said: The WIP hair in your play list post is so beautiful! I can’t wait for it!

Thanks! Planning to get it out in the next week or so

Anonymous said: What do you use donations for?

(answer in bold) lmao I actually don’t get many, at least not enough for them to go towards anything. But I do get a few dollars every couple of months (and that still makes me super happy to see ty to anyone who has donated ever UwU) lmao so I don’t really know what the donations go towards though I guess packs?? which rn I prob wouldn’t buy a pack w/donation money bc irl stufffff but I would think donations on a sims account should go to more sims stuff if you don’t need to money for personal life situations :)

Anonymous said: Hello! Would you ever consider some of your hairs for male sims?

You should be able to disable to masculine filter and see them?? If not go in S4S and edit the tags to let it be seen

Anonymous said: about your last hair: NOPE. 

all night all night all niiiiiiiight ✨

Anonymous said: I’m so happy you made the Jennie Hair without headband! I really like it so far. Good job!

Yay!! I’m glad you like it. Thank you so much <3

Anonymous said: When will you be releasing the braids on your post /post/168877609911/ ?

Yeah!! They’ve been done a while, hopefully they should get posted soon. Here is a link if u want early accessssssssssssss UwU

Anonymous said: why did u and yoshi break up?

Richard ( @cas-fulleditmode ) shares the same fetish as me (M*** P**f) lmao im kiddingggggg UwU me and @ayoshi​ are married in Korea still

Anonymous said: BOOOOOI! HAVE YOU HEARD “BLACK DRESS” BY CLC? IT. IS. LIT

i dont think u get…. my k-pop obsession ;-; lmao I literally keep up with like every girl group and watch the album teasers/everything UwU I still prefer Where Are You? to Black Dress though.

Anonymous said: Are you friends with grimcookies?

to an extend I think so, yes. We have only messaged a few times in the past week or so bc of memessssss

Anonymous said: Can you please post some eyes or tell me where I can download cc eyes? I hate the eyelashes that sims has.

My resource page has the eyes I use and the no EA eyelashes mod link :)

@saurussims​ said: Pass the happy! 💛 When you get this, reply with 5 things that make you happy and send this to the last 10 people in your notifications!

My birthday is this month so I’m happy about that lmao

Loona

my pug UwU

my friendssss

getting new clothing

Anonymous said: aghhhh your sim style is so nice! Have a nice day!

Thank you so much!!

Anonymous said: Hello! ^_^ I just dropped by to tell you how much I appreciate your hard work in making hairs. I don’t know how much time it takes you to make such wonderful creations, but they definitely made my sims better-looking for your CCs are amazing and they are of matching lengths and styles that really made planning my sims’ hairstyles easier <3 Sorry I’m too broke to donate, and all I can do is THANK YOU :( But please know that you deserve all the praises you get. More power to you and your blog! <3

omggg this is so sweet ;-; thank you!!! I really really really appreciate stuff like this. <3

Anonymous said: Would you consider making more hairs (preferably a long, casual style and maybe a ponytail?) with the Candie/Maja bangs? They’re soooo cute!

I have made another hair with those bangs. Hopefully it gets posted soon :)

Anonymous said: Can you please make the laundry day hairstyles base game compatible?

I actually didn’t buy laundry stuff lmao college/senior payments are taking all my money rn so I prob won’t get any packs anytime soon :P

Anonymous said: all i want in life is curly maxis match boy hairs ahhh :((((((((

aweeee I am really bad at male hairs or I would try :( this is a male hair I did the other day and it is super super basic but like I’m surprised it wasn’t super fucked up ;-;

@jacazul​ said: ✨💛 This is the Amazing Person Award! Once you are given this award you are supposed to paste it in the ask of eight different people, who, in your opinion, deserve it. If you break the chain nothing will happen, but it is sweet to know someone thinks you’re amazing inside and out 💛✨ <3333

Thank you!!! <3

Anonymous said: how do you get all your sims to look so cute??? every time i think i’ve made a super cute sim i see one of your sims on my dash and i’m like WHOA NEVERMIND THEN. seriously tho what are your secrets

ummmm I use all my sims and then just do ‘make twin/sibling’ and then I get a clone to mold like clay wedgfhv

Anonymous said: which recolor palettes do you recommend for hairs? I like the EA colors but I would like to try some others.. especially after seeing the hair color you put on your sim with the jennie hair in your latest post

Obvi I like the anathema palette bc I put my hairs in that, but the saccharine (?) is really really good and there are tons of hairs in that. and the WMS palette is so so so good there are just too many swatches for me to do that palette tbh

Anonymous said: Are you going to make more hairs that are ombre accessory compatible?

Maybe! I am not sure tbh, it depends on the mesh I use and abunch of other factors :)

Anonymous said: Question, I love your Jisoo hair, it’s well done, but the ombre part, what’s the file name and how do you download it? I’m a noob when it comes to this. Sorry to bother you.

file name -> JisooHairOmbreNaturals[AH00B].package

just put it in your mods folder like you would normal CC. It is in accessories :)

Anonymous said: I’m legit falling in love with you and all these cc’s ❤❤❤

<3333 Thanksssssss UwU

Anonymous said: not to rush you but are any male sims coming out soon :0

My male sim has been in my drafts with all the CC links and everything the past MONTH but I haven’t had the motivation to export his download file omggg. He is on my gallery @ spotharris if u really really want him right now

@bob10112006

​ said:

I love you and thank you for your cc and can you make not so berry cc?thanks!

People have made recolors of my cc in not so berry colors :) check my sideblog @aharris00britneyrecolors​

Anonymous said: Hi! Are you planning to make the Go Won hairs into a bob? the same hair and all but shorter. I just think it will look really nice as a bob.

Maybe?? no plans as of right now though

Anonymous said: please upload your red-ish haired sim! :) x

Already did, check my sim download page

Anonymous said: damn, those new hair really sucks. sorry… but. yeah.

well maybe if you stanned LOONA then you would like them UwU

Anonymous said: I checked out your sim page, they’re so gorgeous! I remember at some point last year you mentioned maybe sharing Briella after you stopped using her, and I haven’t seen her in a while in your posts. Have you considered sharing her or is she just officially retired? She was a very cute sim and is iconic!

Briella wasn’t actually my sim! Her original download post is here

@ayoshi​ said: Are you gonna tell your followers why you didn’t give me a valentine gift or…???

Me and @cas-fulleditmode​ were too busy to take a stop in korea sorry UwU

Anonymous said: heey :) could you maybe put the hairlines your were talking about in the latest post for download? i use hairlines myself and i really like your hairs in tge palette you are using and i can’t find any hairlines in it soo? could you do that? :)            

the hairlines I made are actually in the saccharine palette bc so many clayified hairs come in that palette lmao. They are kinda messy rn but if I eve use them on a sim download ill link them there :)

Anonymous said: Could you please recolour some of wild-pixel’s hairs in the palette?

Anonymous said: can we give you recolor requests?

Idk if I will do recolors that often but when I do I kinda just do what hairs I find myself using at that time :P

Anonymous said: Will u ever upload girl from “tell me why, why i’m so lonely” post?? Please consider it, she is soooo cute 😍😍😍

I didnt save her :(

@investedwheat40 said: Would you ever consider uploading your joy hair as a default replacement for that one hair Zoe Patel wears?

Prob not since it uses different textures/shadows and stuff, it would be the same size and stuff as the normal Joy hair

Anonymous said: Is there any way to download you models? Because I live how they looks and really want to use them.

I got this before I made my sim download page, but lmao here is a link to my sim download page :P

[sooncoups]

Hi! I love your blog and wanted to say keep on going! ❤️❤️❤️ I’m going to Seoul in September and was wondering if you could tell me the names of the seventeen places you went to (like the cafe where they shot pretty u and where you can get seventeen drinks) Thank you so much if you answer this ilyy💕💖🌻

Hi! I am so sorry I am just now getting to this. I have been stupid busy the past like 2 weeks but I should be more active now! Plus i didnt want to give you like a half assed response lol. So under the cut I am going to say all the Seventeen related things i did and where to go! 

OKAY LETS GET IT

Idk how long you will be in Korea but if you are not getting a phone plan and living off of wifi based(what I did, i survived) then I recommend using Google Maps. Put in the address BEFORE you leave when you still have wifi and it will track where you are even without wifi. Just whatever you do DO NOT close out of the app. But just incase also screen shot the subway/bus routes. 

1. The Pretty U cafe ~ It is like a GIANT cafe in Gangnam. It looks a little weird from the outside with like firewood and stuff lol idk but it is kinda up a street a little but I will just give you the address. It has kinda expensive drinks but its really good. I got kiwi juice. Also while I was there they were having a birthday event for Kang Daniel of Wanna One so that was cool. Here is the address. 

2. Seventeen X Dal.komm Coffe ~ Okay so this one ended the 24th of August. But this took me a ton of translating and figuring things out to find so imma tell you where i found them anyways. So basically every Dal.komm location was doing it but if you want to collect the cards it a bit harder since I needed to find which places have what cards. I got all of them but the vocal unit because it was closed the 2 times i went then i gave up lol. I got the full unit card here. The performance unit here. And the hip hop unit here. The drink was super good. Since i got three of them i tired both but I liked the coffee one better than the mango one. Its a really cool place to go anyways. There is one right after you get off the subway at SMTown. 

3. Pledis Building ~ So idk when they are taking down the YMMD poster things from the building but if its still there you can go take pictures in front of it and also you might see some members! My friend saw Vernon and Josh when she went. The only thing I ask of you is to not like.. be weird. I went to take pictures and honestly was extremely uncomfortable. I felt creepy being there and knowing they were in there potentially seeing me taking pictures awkwardly outside the building made me very nervous and the pictures were weird lol. I went twice though. Once when they first put of the posters and once again when I had pink hair because it matched lol. But here is the address. Just be respectful and dont hang around longer than like 10 minutes. And dont hang around at all of you arnt taking pictures. Its weird to see people just like.. sitting outside. Also there is a daycare that is RIGHT next to it that lets out around 3ish and it gets crazy busy and even MORE awkward to take pics lol. 

4. Birthday Events ~ So I got to go to 2 birthday things while I was there. Wonwoo and S.Coups. Basically the fansites for those members will have events like coffee cup holders or signs in the subways or whatever. Just follow the fansites on twitter and most of the time it is pinned to the top of their feed to find them. I think you will be there for Jeonghans birthday. If you want me to send you links to those fansites let me know! 

5. Non-Seventeen places ~ OK so I am multifandom as hell and was THRIVING off everything else that was also going on. Seventeen is still not THAT big in korea so there isnt much for them. I was lucky that I went when there was a concert and a comeback so I got all the svt stuff. Other than that I went to SMTown like 7 times lol. I loved it there and everything is always changing. I also watched an EXO concert in the surround viewing thing and it was SO COOL. To see a concert like that and go to the museum it was like 20,000 won i think. You can also go for free though and just look at some stuff. Also a neat little mall under it. I saw the kpop bear walk of fame thingy. 

I think that is about it. Let me know if you have any questions! 

[luvdsc]

i actually just signed up for classes today and i got pretty much all the courses i wanted 🥳 i am looking forward to econ and art the most!

i was so so sad i couldn’t catch dpr’s set 😔 god la traffic is always so bad for what and i was looking forward to keshi as well but idk i was just so underwhelmed by the songs he played?? like i still enjoyed it but i think i was just disappointed bc i was hoping he’d play a song from his skeletons ep . speaking of hitc was the second time i got to see keshi live which was so surreal. that being said i’m really happy he’s getting sm more recognition he’s representing and making us viets proud!!! how close were u to the stages? i was more in the back in the first day BUT that kinda made illenium more enjoyable and i was close enough 2nd day i didn’t need to zoom in as much for joji :’)

literally not even a week after hitc i went to another concert akskdkdkf ok but this one was just absolutely insane and a completely different experience from the other shows i have ever been to since it was for a super popular rapper KAKSKDKDF me and my best friend were a double miniority being asian and girls surrounded by a bunch of non asian boys with a ton of sweat and bo 😭😭 i still had lots of fun tho like after i got out of the pit barricade and moshed outside of it. but out of all the concerts i’ve ever gone to seeing keshi back in 2019 is still the best by far i got to meet him and the opening acts take a pic w them AND one of them signed vans hehe i still have them til this day

my birthday was yesterday omg hehe me and my friends celebrated by eating out and i finally satisfied by xiao long bao cravings 🤩 we also went and got piercings too and crazy but it also happened to be my piercer’s birthday that day too 😳idk i’m an adult now but i also dont feel it kakskdkdkff

i agree with you about the all too well mv being unsettling esp when dylan and sadie were making out i was like ummmm UMMMM LMAKSKSF but ik it was done on purpose to make us uncomfortable which honestly really worked. as basic (maybe??? i am not sure tbh) as it may sound my favorites songs on red have always been red and everything has changed 😸 and its still true to now. ok i am not a fan of ed or his music at all but that song he did with taylor was just too cute especially when you watch the mv and ofc we are adding message in a bottle to it now as well into my favorites 👍 which album are you excited for to be re-recorded next? personally i am looking forward to speak now because ik im going to cry to the new ver of last kiss and back to december 🥲 - 💐 anon

aaaa omg congrats on getting all the courses you wanted, honey bee !!!! 💘 which econ are you focusing on? :o macro, micro, international, or another type? and omg art !!! what art will you be doing, sweetpea? 💞

omg i missed half of dpr because my flight kept getting delayed and eventually canceled so i had to rebook a new flight right then and there and couldn't get there in time 😭 they were sooo good live tho and i hope they come back next year 🧎🏻‍♀️ also yes, keshi was a bit underwhelming plus with the whole mic issue /: but i am over the moon that i actually got to see him perform live !!!!!! i love love love his music so much, and it felt like a dream to see him 🤧 and YES omg i'm glad he's getting more recognition and heck yea for the fellow viet pride !!! 💛 i was in the middle ! like not in the back but not very close to the front either so i still had to zoom in with my cam rip but it was sooo much fun 💓

oooo omg who did you go to see? oh god, the BO and sweat in raves and mosh pits 💀💀 it's unbelievable and i'm so glad we wear masks at concerts now. i'm glad you had a good time though, lovebug !! 🌸 NO WAY OMG YOU MET HIM ?? WHO WERE THE OPENING ACTS? AND THEY SIGNED YOUR VANS asdfhalksjda you're living the true concert experience 🤩🤩🤩

aaaa i'm so sad i missed it, this is long overdue, but happy (belated) bday, honey bee 💖💖 xiao long bao sounds so good aaaa i really wanna get some now 🤧 and omg new piercings !!!! which piercing(s) did you get? congratulations on being an adult now, lovebug 🥳🥳💜

YES oh my god when they made out i was like .... this should be illegal 😬😬 but yes she definitely proved her point with the casting and their acting. red and everything has changed are both so good !!!!! omg yes the everything has changed mv 🥺🥺 the little versions of themselves are so cute and that mv makes me smile :') yessss omg i hear message in a bottle playing on the radio in the car nowadays too, and it makes me so happy 🥰 i'm also looking forward to speak now !!!! YES omg last kiss hits so hard, and i also really love ours 🥺💗💗 i'm also hoping crazier will be added to her rerecording for speak now 🤧 also enchanted and long live ✨✨

how have you been doing, sweetpea? are you celebrating the holidays? are you doing anything fun for nye? 💕

[freckleslester]

do you know what day it is?

today is a v important day. it's the 6th january 2018, which means it's skippers (@strangely-skipper) fifteenth (correct me if i'm wrong? ik i'm horrible) birthday!

on my birthday last year, skipper wrote me a whole sappy post and i think i should do the same thing bc that post still helps me when i feel down and maybe it will have the same effect on skipper! (even tho i'm not good at that, i'll try)

so we met at an online event. she was the "leader" of our group and i was v nervous about that thing bc it was the first time i participated in any online event. skipper, as the leader, messaged me first and of course, at first it was that weird small talk stage, but we quickly got past that and then conversation flowed so easily.

i was so anxious that the people in my group were not gonna like me, but skipper (and the others too) made me realise that there was no reason to be so anxious.

skipper always listens to me when i have problems (and am willing to talk about it) and is always trying to help, plus she is just an overall extremely supportive person. she is so funny to talk to and did i mention that i sent her a shit ton of pics of my english workbook bc i made some comments there and wanted to show them to somebody bc i found them so funny and she didn't complain but found found it rather funny? i really thought i was annoying her bc these dont make much sense if you don't get the inside jokes. anyways, what im trying to say is, SKIPPER IS AMAZING AND I LOVER HER A LOT.

so, yeah, happy birthday skipper! i love you a lot and i hope you have a great day with great friends and you get cool presents! i'd love to give you an actual present, but that's not how that works, sadly. so i made a really bad edit.

[s3venpounds]

1 - 40

jesus buddy, if you wanted to know more about me just friend me somewhere and talk to me facebook,discord,overwatch,psn, snapchat w.e! haha i dont bite!

also this is gonna be really feckin long

1: Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie.

How to train your dragon (1 and 2 i can’t decide) I fucking LOVE dragons. the idea to fucking ride one in the sky?!?! fucking DOPE. the idea that theyre also SCALY DOGS?!?!? MOTHER.FUCKING.DOPE. i just associate the idea of freedom with flying through the sky and that feeling was conveyed really well in that movie so i really loved it!

2: Talk about your first kiss.

honestly? kinda dumb now that i look back on it. it was a peck, i wasn’t even like mentally prepared and it happened way faster than i thought. If i knew it was going to happen i would have really like milked that fucker. i woulda went romance movie on that shit with all the extra shit like groping and weird inhaling noises and kissing so hard your teeth almost clink together. but yknow coulda woulda shoulda

3: Talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for.

theyre not a part of my life anymore which admittedly fucking sucks but i think its for the better at least for them. do i wish it worked out and we were together? i mean yeah duh, the reasons i fell for them don’t fucking disintegrate/ i just have more information than i had when i first met that person. will i actually actively pursuit them in the chance to be with them again? hell no. i’m tired. and i’ve seen enough “ self confidence” posts on here to think “ hey if someone really wanted me in their life they would go out of their way to do so and seeing as they haven’t even messaged me in god knows how long then its safe to say theyre off being happy

4: Talk about the thing you regret most so far.

man i haven’t seen this person is literally almost 20 years. I need to apologize. or at the very fucking least, see how theyre been doing. its driving me mad just trying to picture how theyre living and just coming up with a giant question mark.

5: Talk about the best birthday you’ve had.

lets be real bro most of my birthdays have been shit so i gave up on tryna make them memorable or fun, ‘s just another day to me. i mean the best one would have to be this one time i got a gameboy advance but thats pretty much it

6: Talk about the worst birthday you’ve had.

yknow how everyone says “ OH MY GOD WE SHOULD KEEP IN TOUCH” once you move? yeah thats bullshit. honest to god bullshit. i kept tabs on everyone when i moved to a different city and when i came down to visit for my birthday inviting all those people who supposed “wanted to keep in touch with me” literally 1 person showed up. and i think they only showed up because our parents were friends too. so yeah. fuck people sometimes.

7: Talk about your biggest insecurity.

hygiene. breath, hair, clothes, eating habits, manners, anything that might make me come off as unclean to people im trying to impress drives me off the fucking wall. specially at formal events. if im wearing snazzy clothing at like a suite 16 or a debut or a wedding bet you $100 that im adjusting little aspects of my appearance every like 15 seconds. eating mints the second one is finished, trying not to be too close to someones face when talking, even when i fucking fart i always take note of which way the wind is blowing, or im sitting down on something that can absorb the stench, how much pressure is in my gut and how much of it can i let out in small bursts to avoid sound. that or asian dick syndrome. yknow. haha asians got a small dick? that kinda shit bugs me a bit. not a ton but more than i thought it would

8: Talk about the thing you are most proud of.(i am literally only 8 questions in and my fingers are a little sore from typing)

my singing and impressions? i once scared some friends when i imitated a party blower kazoo thingy since the ones they bought from the dollarstore didnt make any sound. same as my singing, i tend to get high scores and i impressed my cousins once with a perfect score on a backstreet boys song HEH

9: Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.

my biceps? theyre not like chris hemsworth level of meaty but like when i worked at this physically demanding job my coworkers are like “ woah dude ur arms are different from mine, if you worked out theyd look so ripped” that kinda stuck with me for a while specially knowing they were a football jock and they had their own special diet and fitness instructor or something. i also like my smile/ jaw shape? my hair can look pretty good too sometimes

10: Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had.

my family is very passive aggressive oh and racist

11: Talk about the best dream you’ve ever had.

i once had this dream where i had reallllly passionate sex and it felt real and i could feel like every little detail down to like hairs brushing my skin on my arms and shit. i swear to this day it was a modern day succubus or something

12: Talk about the worst dream you’ve ever had.

that dream where i was a bird and flying away from”something” just all my instincts telling me to RUN. or that dream where i got shot in the hand, chest then the head and before i blacked out i said “Ch*****” who incidentally i was going to see later that day which made things very awkward at least for me

13: Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time.

it was pretty good. looking back i was probably shit in bed hahaha first time so of course theres shit to work out. 

14: Talk about a vacation.

hit on by a cousin AND their gay friend. to which the cousin threatened me with self harm but the gay friend took the rejection very easily it was almost baffling in comparison (although the second the settled down they started to bash on me for rejecting their friend) also ate some REALLLLLY garlic covered crab the smell took 5 washes to get out… also got to ride in the back of a truck as its driving at like 120 mph and flying off all these little hills and tracking mud everywhere it was great

15: Talk about the time you were most content in life.

she was in my arms fast asleep and i took a photo. she didnt like that but let me keep the pic so that was nice.

16: Talk about the best party you’ve ever been to.

i can’t really remember any that stand out they were all equally fun. dont get me wrong some were super fun its just that it was also followed by a lot of bad choices that kinda take it down a notch. i will say this one party a friend hosted where i got to meet a BUNCH of new people. i also snorted some fundip powder as a dare. they refuse to let it go so i figure might as well own it. i also landed some sweet shots in beerpong

17: Talk about someone you want to be friends with.

ellen paige would be dope to be friends with. same with zendaya. and gal gadot just so i can like sit in her presence and be in awe for extended periods of time

18: Talk about something that happened in elementary school.

i was cheating on a test and my so called friend ratted me out never talked to him again that white privilege lookin hoe

19: Talk about something that happened in middle school.

i stopped talking to a friend that id thought i would be friends with for my whole life. i also became friends with my current best friend

20: Talk about something that happened in high school.

people are dumb. drama is dumb. people who seek out this kinda shit needa leave me the hell alone. and if youre going to challenge me to a fight, tell me about said fight so i can show up. dont march around telling people ur gonna fight me and not tell me so i dont show up and make it look like i pussied out. like for real?

21: Talk about a time you had to turn someone down.

oh yeah like the vacation one said : shit got really weird. and to have that sorta conversation on spotty wifi in an airport in south korea meaning jet lag is also disorienting af

22: Talk about your worst fear.

death. nuff said

23: Talk about a time someone turned you down.

it sucked but it happens so like.? lmao i dont really know waht to say but it sucked

24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.

i have a horrible memory and on top of that my mind moves at like 32754895274 miles a second so i dont keep stuff in mind a lot in the first place. i can’t really think of anything that had so much impact that i’ve remembered it. well i mean there was this one song a friend told me about in a letter and to this day i’ve kept remembering the same verse “ maybe if we met each other under a different sky maybe things would be much better between you and i”

25: Talk about an ex-best friend.

we just….grew apart. and if we tried to be friends now im sure there would be tension and unease. hes just in a different friend circle. i dont hate him for it i just feel like hes living in a world of white and im living in a world of black like its just plain and simple

26: Talk about things you do when you’re sick.

on the computer. i can’t rest when im sick. i just keep trudging along. school, work, hangouts, i still go. i just take precautions to not spread it

27: Talk about your favorite part of someone else’s body.

neck? shoulder? hands? face? hair? idk dood i don’t really like specific places more of how WELL those parts can mesh together to make this beautiful being.

28: Talk about your fetishes.

y’all about to learn some shit because im gonna teach you a thing about me. pov’s, deepthroat/gagging, emo/goth, anal, massage, ropes and power trips, asians, tentacles if im feeling kinky, hentai /cartoon shit, glory holes, dirty talk and asmr (who woulda thought theres porn for that huh?), ahegao(being fucked silly or till your mind breaks into being nothing but a cumdump), swallowing, threesomes, double penetration, latex is pretty cool too, cosplays are nice if the characters are ones i recognize, tittyfucks, source film maker porn of like video game characters are getting pretty professional nowadays, lesbian, orgys, teenage girls and old ass guys, horse dicks and girls who try to take em, i got turned on by a girl fucking a dog once so i guess bestiality is a thing, oh i saw this scene in a movie im not sure if it was real it seems kinda hazy but it involved necrophilia but im not sure if it turned me on or it was so weird i’ve memorized it because of how weird it was. chicks with dicks fucking other chicks. and a plethora of other weird shit. i dont know what fetishes count and what doesn’t so i just listed whatever came to mind as i wrote have fun with that shit

29: Talk about what turns you on. 

short hair, asian heritage, playful and lighthearted but can be lustful as all hell, shorter than me, big boobs is a plus, mid driffs, underboob, small frame or face, scent( god if you smell good thats instant brownie points with me), likes anime, high pitch voices are cute as hell, very physically intimate, loves PDA’s, yeah i can’t really think of much

30: Talk about what turns you off.

uhh smells bad?, when their personality is bland/boring, or just shit. over timidness i get being shy but like if you can’t trust that the person youre interested in then like what am i supposed to do. i literally dated a girl who was so sheepish all i could do was ask her yes or no questions. and honestly that got old really fucking fast. i get she was trying but like i can only finesse so much of a relationship man. bad hygiene holy fuck. if you got like ear wax showin our ur ears, or like a bleeding pimple in plain view and refuse to at least dab it with a wet cloth or tissue then pls its not gonna work out. dandruff oh my gOD. dandruff would drive me nuts. like if i get close enough to see individual fucking flakes im gonna tear my whole scalp off

31: Talk about what you think death is like.

i feel like our bodies stop responding but our “souls” are still present there trapped screaming and trying to move our body but can’t. and thats why burials and shit sound so terrifying

32: Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.

dont need to. im a couple blocks away i can visit it any time. (my elementary and middle school the neighbourhood surrounding it was also where i used to live so that was dope)

33: Talk about what you do when you are sad.

i force myself to get MORE sad so i can get it all out in one go and much faster. like how the human mind can only get so angry that the brain gives up and just tries to find another way to spend its time. 

34: Talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured.

when i was a kid me and bunch of other kids decided to clog a slide with just a shit ton of people and one of my friends who came after me kept pushing me to the point i was hanging on for dear life using only my knee down that was wedged between a fat kid and my friend who went after me. i fell off eventually knocking skulls with another kid near the end of the slide(this slide was shaped like a spring so that explains why there were kids under me) my arm bend backwards for a sec after hitting another kid’s legs, and then i fell chest and fast first on the asphalt winding myself. kids are rugged as all hell man they can really take a hit. i walked it off but god damn if i didnt get bruises and shit afterwards. or that time i got beaten so bad by father dearest because work was stressful and i ended up blacking out. wasn’t even allowed to go to the hospital. just kinda laid down in my room with bruises all over.

35: Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.

relying on people for happiness. distracting myself from sadness and responsibilities. procrastinating in general

36: Talk about your guilty pleasures.

i dont really feel guilt save for some specific circumstances. ask any of my friends. does that mean im a sociopath or whatever? 

37: Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.

they just got out of a relationship with someone and was avoiding them profusely and i just started to get to know them. we got to the point that when she was ready we could date. little did i know that later, she would end up dating a friend of mine. to which i promptly had the appropriate reaction of crying myself to sleep, sending that friend a text message with all the things he should know to keep that girl happy and ultimately smashing a lot of things (some bottles actually because we were gonna build a sculpture or something together with em. man middle school was a fucking RIDE)

38: Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.

mmmmmm i would prefer to keep those underwraps.

39: Talk about things you wish you’d known earlier.

family will be there for you in the end. (not because they want to but because the world teaches them that they have to meaning they will help just in their own way and to their own ends.) friends come and go. they always have always will. anyone who says forever is a fuckin idiot. lovers come and go thats just a natural part of growing up. and lets be real all the people that said they would self harm ultimately never did so dont stress it so much god damn(but dont let it slide either)

40: Talk about the end of something in your life.

how about the end of my interest in anime and video games. nothing seems to really interest me anymore. everything is just kinda “meh”

[whyldkratts]

for the ask meme: all of them, but if thats too much maybe just the last 10?

Sorry for the long post aaaa1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? [I bought lottery tickets bc I was in texas and they’re not legal where I live and the cashier at the gas station didn’t even ask for my id. I tried to show him and he just shook his head and let me go???? He didnt even care wtf]2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? [Nah]3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? [Yea a little bit. I mean if it was just occasionally that’s probably fine? But a lot of my family has fucked up their entire lives with drugs so anything like that is iffy for me. It depends on how often they smoke ultimately]4: Do you find it easy to trust others? [I’d say yeah, probably. As long as you don’t fuck me over or guilt me within the first few weeks of knowing me id probably feel comfortable messaging you if I needed someone to talk to]5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? [Scrolling Tumblr]6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? [Probably my irl bffs lindy and raven!]7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? [Dump them. Adios fucker. I hope they’re happy with whoever they cheated on me with]8: Are you close with your dad? [Yeah I’d say so? I love him and he usually let’s me do my thing]9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? [Nah]10: What are you listening to? [Run by hozier]11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? [Sweet tea!!!! I’m from the south baby]12: Do you like hickeys? [Never has one so I don’t know!]13: What time do you go to bed? [Uhhhhhh 5am?]14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? [My siblings.]15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? [Nope I fuck up spelling a lot and have to go back and fix it no matter how many hands I’m typing with]16: Do you always answer your texts? [I try!! Unless I’m emotionally tired or forget]17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? [No. She’s my best friend now, actually]18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? [LIKE 3 MINUTES AGO I was complaining about how long it car ride home is]19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? [My irlbest friends, the cars discord chat I’m in, and a lot of my wk friends]20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? [I was writing ducktales fanfiction in my head]21: Is anyone else in the room with you? [I’m in a car with my mom for the next uhhh 7 hours?]22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? [Karmas a bitch]23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? [I was visiting family in Indiana, so yea probably? Tho I am pretty happy now too]24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? [Sometimes, with my old pal cat. She did some bad things so I stopped talking to her, but sometimes I want to catch up and see how she’s doing.]25: In the past week, have you cried? [YEAH over a darkwing duck episode]26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? [Grey. It has Mickey mouse on it!]27: Do people ever call you by your last name? [Noooope]28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? [I wouldn’t know]29: Do you have a best friend? [YEAH everyone in the cars discord and raven and lindy]30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? [No it was my great grandma lol]31: Who was your last call/text message from? [Call: red cross asking for my blood. Text: raven saying “dang”]32: Are you mad at anyone? [Not really? I don’t get angry very easily at all]33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you? [When I was a freshman I was dating a junior]34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? [My great grandma! 88 I think]35: How many more days until your birthday? [LIKE a whole entire year. August 2nd]36: Do you have any summer plans yet? [Help my friend after her spine surgery p much. Visit family around the 4th of july]37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? [I have tons of girl friends!! All my best friends are girls (except em but they’re a good friend still!!!)]38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? [Lindy doesn’t know I’m trans]39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? [Uhhhhhhhhhhh next question]40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? [I try not to regret things like that]41: Do you think age matters in relationships? [UH YEAH?? An adult dating a minor ain’t my deallll]42: Are you available? [Lmfao yeah but don’t hold your breath I’m awful at relationships]43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? [My ex and bff dksdkdiajsai kill Me. I’ve had small crushes but I don’t rly let them grow too much if I realize they’re poppin up]44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? [Septum]45: Do you believe exes can be friends? [Yeah!!!!! I just reconnected with my ex from freshmen year and he’s cool]46: Do you regret anything? [Times where my mouth moved before my head could think and I hurt someone I cared about. Times where I didn’t listen. Times where I hesitated. But the past is a different country, and I try not to waste the present lamenting what I could’ve done.]47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? [Home. And the mistakes I’ve made.]48: Did you ever lose a best friend? [Yeah. She moved away and we just… talked less, and less, and less.]49: Was your last kiss a mistake? [Nah it was my great grandma]50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? [They have a bf and also dont like me plus im unlovable and bad at relationships and feelings *shrug emoji* the other person I’m interested in lives too far away and also doesn’t like me like that]51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? [Twas my gg and probably when I was a baby]52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? [All these last kiss ones are so angsty and sad and it was literally my grandma 5 hours ago I’m laughing]53: What was the last thing you ate? [McDonald’s French fries!!!!!]54: Did you get any compliments today? [Nah I’m in my road trip attire so I look like a mess]55: Where are you going on your next vacation? [New Orleans in October for voodoo fest!! Gonna see the foo fighters B)]56: Do you own anything from other countries?[I think I have Canadian money somewhere…]57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?[girls!!]58: Where have you lived most of your life?[Sweet Home Alabama]59: When was the last time you took a long drive?[DOING IT RN!!!!! 13 HOURS]60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?[yea but it was like, mashed up with truth or dare. Instead of kissing we asked them truth or dare]61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?[nah I’m pretty mild]62: Who do you text the most?[raven probably? Or max]63: What was the last movie you saw?[spirited away I think??? First time I ever saw it]64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?[I’m single, don’t remind me :P]65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011?[I was 12 and right smack dab in the middle of my ugly awkward phase (thays still going on today!) So I had none lmao]66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?[nah]67: Do you curse around your parents?[GOOD LORD NO]68: Are you happy with where you live?[I? Hate Alabama. My city is okay but I want to move somewhere nicer]69: Picture of yourself? [I have a selfie tag. I would upload but I’m lazy. Maybe if I find a pic I like later I will]70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?[polyamory All the wayy!!!!! But monogamy is cool too]71: Have you ever been dumped?[probably in elementary school but I don’t remember? I usually am the one to end it bc I get freaked out and skittish around people genuinely caring about me so I break it up before they’re disappointed]72: What do you most like about making out?[being comfortable and close enough with someone to do it.]73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with?[yup!]74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other?[depends? I’ve asked to kiss someone and I’ve been asked equal amounts.]75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive?[eyes? Idk there’s a lot that goes into finding someone attractive it’s hard to narrow it down]76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?[my mom]77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?[virgin]78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name?[virgin]79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?[Any cartoon character I’m currently hyperfixated on]80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?[yes. But i would go slow and I wouldn’t want to meet their child until we were both sure this was something we wanted long term.]81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?[no its usually me? Wait i take that back!! One girl did while I was in hs but I’m pretty sure she only did it bc she just figured out her sexuality and I was queer and there.]82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?[nope I bottle that shit up!!!! But if it’s a long standing crush I’ll tell a few people eventually]83: Do you miss your last sweetie?[No.]84: Last time you slow danced with someone?[my friend Franklin at prom. We pretended to be spies on a mission forced to act casual as we scoped out potential enemies]85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met?[??? Don’t like the skeptical quote marks. I’ve been in long distance relationships before, yes.]86: How can I win your heart?[just like…… be nice to me, ever, and I’m into it. Talk about things you like, ask me about things I like, try and get into/understand my interests and I’ll do the same?? Don’t make fun of me and don’t belittle my interests. The bar is low]87: What is your astrological sign?[leo]88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM?[sleeping]89: Do you cook?[pasta!!!!!!!]90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?[yeah!!! 3 years of no talking and I reconnected with max recently]91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?[uh it’s complicated. Yes but idk if I’m in a good place for a relationship. I haven’t even begun to transition at all.]92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?[you say that like I could get multiple people to date me]93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?[nice dress style?? Glasses are good too. Idk questions like this are hard augh]94: Name four things that you wish you had![money, a job, plush darkwing duck toy, a car]95: Are you a player?[no]96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day?[nooooope]97: Are you a tease?[hahahahaha no]98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?[nope!!! Not yet]99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?[maybe. But I don’t think you can love someone too deeply who doesn’t love you back]100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?[sure, plenty]101: Hugs or Kisses?[both??? Both is good]102: Are you too shy to ask someone out?[It’s Not shyness, it’s rejection I have a problem with]103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?[girls are pretty]104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?[Yeah I guess]105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?[If it was an open relationship and everyone knew the situation, then yea prob?? If not, then no.]106: Do you flirt a lot?[not really]107: Your last kiss?[my grandmaaaaa]108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012?[not in a romantic way]109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month?[not in a romantic way]110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be?[next question]111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next?[nope!! It’s a hopefully nice surprise for future me]112: Does someone like you currently?[probably not lol but ive got no idea!!]113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone?[sure]114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?[I want to fall in love.]115: Ever made out with just a friend?[yeah]116: Are you happier single or in a relationship?[in a relationship I think?]117: Your own question that you want me to answer. Just write it.[just send me an ask and ill answer it]

This got a bit of self hatred dashed in there whoops sorry!!!

[discorded-psychicemotions]

92 Statements

RULES: answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people! I'm bored so I'm gonna thank @hufflepuffwannabe For taggin anyone who wants to so... LAST: 1. Drink: Hazelnut Coffee with a crap ton of sugar and too much milk
2. Phone call: Call from my best friend (for the sake of animosity) Jacob who I then told to text me because I hate phone calls.
3. Text message: "Goodnight (bf), I love you☺️😙” 
4. Song you listened to: Wolf In Sheep's Clothing by Set It Off ft. William Beckett 😍😍
5. Time you cried: Oh boy like five hours ago.. got my class schedule and had an anxiety breakdown about abandonment. *yay* HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: nope
7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Haven't had my first kiss yet😝😁
8. Been cheated on: Well not officially but I suspect he was, yes.
9. Lost someone special: As in dead, not really. As in otherwords, yes
10. Been depressed: From the end of Fifth grade to the end of Eighth grade
11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Never drank before (psst I'm a minor) LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: (This is in order for me)
12. Nightsky Blue 13. Silver 14. Black IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends: YESS❤️😍
16. Fallen out of love: Nope, fell in love.
17. Laughed until you cried: Probably!😂
18. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes.
19. Met someone who changed you: Hahaha in a good way or bad- either way it's a yes I guess
20. Found out who your friends are: Absolutely.
21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Not yet😉😁 GENERAL:
22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: All of them.
23. Do you have any pets: Eight cats and One Boston Terrier (I think?) Msg me if you want pics cause they are regall
24. Do you want to change your name: mehhh maybe my last one day but even then I don't know.
25. What did you do for your last birthday?: I saw a movie and my moms cars window was smashed into and someone stole her purse and my camera.
26. What time did you wake up: 6 Am
27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Avoiding sleep tbh
28. Name something you can’t wait for: life
29. When was the last time you saw your mom: four hours ago
30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: My Mind
31. What are you listening to right now: Living Louder By The Cab
32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Probably???
33. Something that is getting on your nerves: My little brother screamin his ass off because he dont wanna sleep
34. Most visited websites: Gmail honestly. I also use FB messenger though. 
35. Mole/s: Lots!😍
36. Mark/s: Right Pointer and Left Ring Finger are scars from my nails. I have an unknown caused scar on my knee. I have three scars on my wrist from my cat panicking in my arms(lemmie know if ya wanna know that story😂😂😭). Finally a birthmark on my right hand next to my knuckle.
37. Childhood dream: Teacher, Ballerina, Nasa Scientist.
38. Hair color: dark brown is the natural but rn its like brown fade to green fade to blondish.
39. Long or short hair: rn its medium, I prefer short but I'm growing it out again.
40. Do you have a crush on someone: Yas😍
41. What do you like about yourself: my eyes?
42. Piercings: Just my ears
43. Blood type: I haven't the slightest Idea bc my dad is AB- and my mom is A- so I could legit be a n y t h i n g
44. Nickname: Nope.
45. Relationship status: Happily Taken☺️
46. Zodiac: Pisces 
47. Pronouns: she/her
48. Favorite TV Show: Sherlock, OUAT, NCIS, Life, etc.
49. Tattoos: Not yet😒
50. Right or left hand: right handed
51. Surgery: nopeee
52. Hair dyed in different color: so much
53. Sport: theatre?
55. Vacation: hahahaha no
56. Pair of trainers: wtf are trainers-oh theyre shoes. Um regular? MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: I either eat too much or nothing (it's bad but I promise I don't have an eating disorder.
58. Drinking: Soda, Tea, Coffee, Water, Milk, JUICE
59. I’m about to: go cry and avoid my bro who is currently yelling I hate you.
61. Waiting for: School so I get my friends back
62. Want: to be happy
63. Get married: maybe one day.
64. Career: Something having to so with Psychology 65. Hugs or kisses: Depends on who???
66. Lips or eyes: 👀 Eyes are the window to the soul
67. Shorter or taller: Doesn't matter
68. Older or younger: Doesn't matter but most likely not that far from my age.
70. Nice arms or nice stomach: Doesn't matter?
71. Sensitive or loud: Yes
72. Hook up or relationship: relationship. 
73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Depends😝 HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a Stranger: nope
75. Drank hard liquor: nope
76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: ....my dog ate them.
77. Turned someone down: I felt bad, but yes.
78. Sex on the first date: nope
79. Broken someone’s heart: sadly
80. Had your heart broken: sadly again
81. Been arrested: nope
82. Cried when someone died: yup
83. Fallen for a friend: always. DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: I like to lie and say I do but I don't
85. Miracles: Meh.
86. Love at first sight: No but I do believe in Destiny and Fate.
87. Santa Claus: No
88. Kiss on the first date: Meh sure? OTHER: 90. Current best friend name: Alex, Emma, Jared, Byron.
91. Eye color: Brown
92. Favorite movie: Spirited Away I tag whoever wants to and @americananime26 also @regaltempo

[oddlymysteriousphoenix]

#61 12:59am May 14

I will update when it's a good time to do so. As of now, I will simply post my update on all my friends in which who I can recall and will do what I can to do it right. Here we go~ (List will be in random order) -Mom- We're doing pretty good, nothing BAD exactly, she does annoy me from time to time with her demands such as cleaning up my room when it's going to be a huge mess anyway. Since awhile ago, she wants to get a grill from the money of my dad and I, hah... I don't hate her, I mean, we all have flaws and that's okay. She's going to go celebrate Mother's Day with her friends, including ''Konni'' (I don't know how to spell her name, but she's the aged woman who introduced me to sushi and I feel in love with it from the start.) But yeah, there's that. -Dad- We're always on good terms, never have we once been at odds with each other, he'll be coming down here soon for my graduation. I hope I'm able to spend more time with him as I aim to go on my own sometimes eventually. Not saying I won’t have contact with them, just being out of their influence would be nice. He's still up working on roofs and such, great worker he is. We continue to call each other every day, it has been a thing since I was little as my parents divorced when I was young and we all lived in Miami at the time. If only he lived closer so I could visit him, I would if I could. -Dj A.K.A. Jacob- Since the last time my mom and I went out to a nearby sushi restaurant, Dj and I have been talking again now. Which is wonderful as I still recall weekends where I literally had no one to game with, so yeah. We're still on good connections, we chatted last night as he and our friend (I’ll call him Party as it's part of his gamertag, new guy to me on Xbox) were playing Overwatch. Anyway, yeah, he's doing pretty good over there, I haven't heard him complain about anything of his life, yet. We all get there from time to time. I look forward into talking more, not to sound clingy, we just go way back into the days of Reach. -Seeker A.K.A. Jared- Ah, I miss the dude. Favorite catholic friend, not that religion matters, anyway, I haven't spoken to him since ages ago. I asked Dj on what has been going on with him and he told me he's still busy with work and such, but he's still going well. I wonder how he has been doing though, I miss him. We go way back as well, to Reach. Maybe sooner or later I'll get in reach with him, although he is busy very often from what I can recall and he has his own group of ''goons'', it's worth a nice try. What can go wrong? -Erin A.K.A. Goodbye Delilah- Quick clarification, long ago Erin told me she changed her name to Lilah, but everyone still called her Erin so I'm left to guess it was a ''phase'' of a name in a way. So, I no longer have any connections with her anymore. I texted her and she was insane again. She made accusations that weren't true, saying things such as I left her for cancer and I never loved her, so on so on. I took screenshots of what she was saying to me, notifying her that I was doing so as snapchat does that, she went on saying go for what I desire, don't bitch about it and telling me I shared shit for attention, mostly what she said from the pictures of what I took. Then she removed me right after, so poof! She is now gone. Honestly, I'm not disturbed or shocked, not at ease either. Yet, I am a bit relieved I don’t have to deal with her anymore. -Jessica A.K.A. School Buddy- Jessica and I are still talking to each other, even though we don't chat at all outside of class, we still manage to kill time together in class like this past week watching unique videos on YouTube in which are too complex to be explained for the simple minded. ''The pipe is leaking''. She now has a girlfriend too, can't be on school property and she's a dropout too. Dropping out doesn’t matter to me, but I never would have guessed Jessica would date the girl from what I have seen of her. She works at Walmart, I think, eh, whatever makes her happy. -Gabby A.K.A. Goth girl from South Carolina (Or somewhere near there)- Yeah, uh, we simply stopped talking to me as she went off on me saying I was a bad person and I made fun of her for a condition she has, I honestly don’t recall that. She also said I talk about others too much and that she doesn’t need more ''half assed friends'' to be around her. I can't say much about it, I'm not here to please everyone. Although she sees my snapchat story from time to time and I still have her on Instagram, I have nothing against her at all. I know I have flaws. I hope she's doing alright whatever she is up to. -Molly A.K.A. Mollyboo- We haven't formally spoken to each other in a too long of a time. Although we have a streak going on, that also recently died so we're back to square one, her and I don't chat as we used to. From moments passing by me, I feel like I was a cushion for her. I'm not saying she's a bad person, no she's not. All I'm saying is that things haven’t been the same for us. Which is a shame because I enjoyed skyping her when I didn’t have anyone else around. Molly has been with her friends more often recently, her life isn't perfect obviously, as everyone, she is struggling with a few things, but I believe in her where I feel she can get through it all. Uncertain if we'll even meet up during the summer, but that's okay, I just want the best for her. -Alyssa A.K.A. Ex Gothic Succubus-I'm afraid to declare that her presence has gone missing from my life awhile after my birthday. She's been going through a lot, with the possible pending deaths of her relatives, she has been occupied. I do not know what she's facing up to right now, but for sure I wish her the best. I'm not afraid to admit that I miss her, just ashamed on the way our relationship ended. Time will tell if she returns or not, she always does this from time to time being busy and such. I'm not blaming her disappearance on her, we're not even dating anymore so why should I expect her to come back instantly? Anyway, can’t say much about her since she's away at the moment. I sent her voice messages from time to time, maybe she'll hear them one day. I hope so, I have countless voice messages of her on my phone. -Rose A.K.A. One Year Crush- The impact of her thorns hasn’t healed at all. Ah, oh well, she's still dating that one nice looking guy. They went to prom together and they looked like a cute couple. Even though she said it could’ve been better, she still enjoyed it. I miss her. Of course, she's dealing problems from within herself and her family from what I have been seeing. It hurts to watch and if I could look away I wouldn’t as I care for her. Uncertain if we'll meet up for the summer to be honest, she hasn't texted me since my birthday. I still leave her voice messages from time to time, never expecting a reply back. Some say move on, some say hang on, I say woebegone. Since Reach we go back too, I don't want to loose what's part of my world. After all, more and more of it is becoming a memory rather than reality. -Angel A.K.A. Tall Mexican- Another surprise, we haven't talked at all. He's been focusing on work and with his girlfriend which is great and all, just wish we would hang out more. He still lives here, he still posts stuff that I see and he's more than alive surely. Joyful he's not, but he's getting somewhere, good guy he is. -Nara A.K.A. Gone Girl- Ever since the last time we met, we haven't texted. I know of recent she posted a pic with her boyfriend, so they're dating. I’m not jealous, only upset that she suddenly disappeared from my life like I was some paper airplane that was around only to be thrown away from her. Ah, oh well. No idea what she is up to. -Jaden A.K.A. Suicide Girl- Jaden and I are talking, but only in school. In no way do I desire to talk to her out of school and we haven't. Classless I am on her talking to me again in chorus when she hasn't before, wouldn’t even make eye contact. She mainly talks to this girl ''Ericca'' (Don’t know the spelling of her name) who has a ton of problems, but we all do so I won’t complain about that. There's that. -Grace A.K.A. Edgy Misguided Wiccan- Not much to say about her besides her unreasonable ways of living and her choice of people she surrounds herself with like having a best friend that's 13 doing drugs and dating a guy who snorted Doritos for a dare. Makes me wonder why I'm picked over these people, ugh. She has her hair black since recent. I was invited to a group chat just this week by her and I was kicked out ''yesterday'' because I disliked a band, I got upset and told her I won’t be coming back. Argh, whatever. I'll be gone soon. -Abby A.K.A. Switching Genders Friend- Ill use she to make it easy. Anyway, her and I have been okay. Not much talking between us, most memorable conversation between us as of this year was us arguing about her flying to live with her boyfriend who lives in Texas. Again, not a bad person. She desperately wants to leave Florida, I feel her. She's going to graduate soon as I am, which is nice. Tried texting her a few hours ago, she didn't feel like talking, I hope she's okay. -Andy A.K.A. I'm Not In Lesbians With You- Andy and I have come down to simply meeting up for a minute or two together walking to her bus and saying good bye with a quick hug. She's still cute and all, but it's not meant to be. Not saying that I desperately wanted to be with her, but at a time where Rose was all I could hold in my mind, I thought she would be the water to wash it away and have her take the place. Im completely aware this isn’t how love works, duh in a way. Besides, our lives are completely different. Anyway, she's out all the time with friends or family, or talking about Attack on Titan saying how Armin is her cush. So, yeah. There's that. -Siena A.K.A. Celebrity Spirit of Miami- Girl from Omegle that lives in Miami. Her and I dont chat as much as I wish, but that's fine. She usually says she's busy with life and ''a lot has been going on'', from what I know she gets called a whore a ton and I don't see her like that as all. Odd to think of it. She is attractive, yeah, but I don't really know much about her despite us knowing each other for a good amount of months. She's great at singing and practices plays, I hope all goes well for her. She deserves it even with her flaws. -Kaylee A.K.A. No Personality Girl- Nothing to say besides her always posting pictures of herself barely smiling or posting pictures of her pets. I would talk to her, but I never feel like she wants to talk to due to her responses. Also, not a bad person, just not a good connection between her and I. I mentioned her long ago as I wrote an entry saying I don’t mean everything literally, some is ranting some is ''blah blah'', I recall she couldn’t let that go because of it. I know I’m not important to her, oh well. -Kayla A.K.A. I Always Wear My Boyfriend's Graduation Ring- Kayla is in the hospital from what I know. She got a kidney stone, if I can remember correctly since it is so late I’m just passing my thoughts onto the screen. Before that, she went to a concert that was very far away and not in Florida, she managed to be with her boyfriend at the time. This was going around when prom was. She got sunburned. I helped her out with our homework for sociology but she didn’t come to day she was said to. I will say I feel like I irritate her sometimes, but maybe that's just me. -Marielle A.K.A. Guatemala Fire- We've been talking a lot for many months, well, this year so far. She recently got grounded by her ungrateful mother. She's not happy to be in Guatemala and wishes to get out of there. She's a sweet girl, smart too, she's learning how to code and working in an office. She's not there everyday and we're not able to skype, but I consider her close to me. So yeah. -Daphine A.K.A. Cloud Exhaler- So long gone that she might as well be out of this universe ever since she got a boyfriend. No clue what's going on with her. It seems the cycle of our friendship ended as she would tend to come back and be distant over and over. She has had a rough past and I can only hope it gets smoother as time erodes life. -Rayanna A.K.A. College Life- She's doing fine, her life has been lightened up by her boyfriend. Gosh, if only I could be that happy. Whenever I text her, she never fails to mention she's doing something in relation to him like being there with him or waiting for him to come over. Sweet relationship from my point of view. -Victoria A.K.A. Nordic Artist- Havent chatted in ages, taken away by her perfect boyfriend. Tried texting her long ago, she seemed very uninterested. I don’t mind, she seems happier and that's great compared to her past.   -Stori A.K.A. G's Girl- Again... Long time no chat, seen her talking with G, Skitz and another guy in parties sometimes over Xbox. Which is a shame since Dj and I never get invited to them. Ah... Sucks, but so be it. G has taken up all the space for everyone else and Stori can go on for months not talking to someone so I guess she thinks Im fine or something. I'm only irritated a bit about it, she has a nice character, one of the most innocent people I know, intelligent too. She's not clueless, she just doesn’t act in a certain way which makes her seem classy, I guess. I’m so tired. -Sheyla A.K.A. Miserable Medical Girl- She's in college going into the medical field. We don’t talk at all, only once but that was ages ago. She seems to be doing well, I have her sister in my sociology class, Sheyla is a lot better compared to her, the sister is awfully annoying. -Jenna A.K.A. Las Vegas's Light- Jenna and I have been texting throughout the day, very enjoyable person to talk to. She's been to many ''cons'' and she's sweet. She's very busy often which sucks, but that's life. We tried staying up Friday, but she fell asleep pretty soon. She had to do a lot today and tomorrow or whatever day this weekend. She works at this place for old people, taking care of them and such.

I would definitely name more, but I am too exchanged to go on. Maybe I’ll add on more soon, as of now, good night.

- 2:54Am